Failure makes a person to success.
I sometimes do wonder whether is it true or not.

It's a bitter sweet feeling seeing your fellow friends able to further their studies and you can't. And there comes a time where you blame yourself for not putting triple the effort compare to others. Who to blame when you yourself does work extra hard right? You blame yourself more when your parent says its alright, it is not your fault that you failed, you just doesn't have the luck to pass.

I've always been a person that vanish or mission in action when I felt like I can no longer blend in or sensitive about losing prestige. Am too afraid that i cannot blend in with the conversation that they are having. Maybe, I'm afraid that they might look down on me or maybe it's because I'm afraid of the question they might ask, I don't know...

But for the past few weeks and days, I realize that people do cares about me. I'm the one that pushes people away. I was shocked when one says :" XXX and I were wondering when didn't we see you around for the past few days." and "I wish that you actually understands that we're always there for you". Maybe at some point where i finally understands that "friends are like stars, you dont always see them but they are always there".